learning from my own journal

so i was browsing through my journal this afternoon, and i found this entry dated june18, 2009. reading it, i find myself relearning the lessons of that day.

there is so much to write about: love and friendship and laughter and tears and people and skies and stars and children and jeepney rides and rain and endless possibilities. there is so much to dream of. so much to see, so much to give. i think, "where does happiness go when it is not with me?"
when we went to visit pompoy last week, uncle Ben quoted Job. God had said to Job what i think i am hearing Him say to me today. until i can follow the wind and know where it goes each time it blows, until i can trace the movement of each wave, the ebb and flow of each tide, until i have numbered the birds and the fish, until i have known the desire of each human heart, i am no [true] judge of what is fair and what is not. it'll be alright. i'll be alright.

Just in Case

On March 20, 2003, I was given one of the most encouraging messages I have ever received, through a little bookmark from a friend.

Here I share it with you:


























To this day, the bookmark looks good as new. Its message remains a source of good cheer and shines truer than ever, especially after that time not too long ago when I stumbled and messed things up.

It was a time when I simply could not trust myself to be let alone. And God knew.

So He sent me an angel in the person of a good friend - the same one who gave me my little bookmark of inspiration more than six years ago.

I now know that my little "just in case" and all others that will follow have been foreseen and prepared for.

That storm has passed. Made braver, stronger, and wiser, I am quite ready for the next one. And just in case my strength fails me, I will not be afraid - because I am also now a little more aware that close by are angels sent by a God who knows just what to do whatever the case.

For he shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways. They shall bear thee up in [their] hands, lest thou dash thy foot against a stone. Psalm 91:11,12

men at "work"

A Pilgrim's Tale

There are mountains I'd like to climb,.
Waters and winds I'd like to ride.
There are depths that I'd like to span
And distances I'd like to run.

I've been seeking, searching still
For what is true, for what is real,
Knowing I would never find
In heights nor depths peace of heart and mind.

There is a wisdom I'd like to live,
And errors I'd have believed.
There is a favor I'd like to win.
I've labored much for all that's vain.

I've been seeking, searching still
For what is true, for what is real,
Knowing I would never find
In human hearts nor minds gold refined.